a love beyond words…

*PHEW* I finally managed to log in after several tries. Age must be really catching up on me these days. I couldn’t even remember my password -.- Or maybe, this blog is no longer significant to me.

Don’t know what draws me to type this now, guess I just needed a space to unwind my thoughts, calm myself down, to make sure I don’t act on impulse. I must say I am feeing much better now, though I was crying like a bitch for don’t know how long.

You made me realize that promises are meant to be broken. Before you start defending yourself saying that I’m comparing two different issues, but think about it, doesn’t both requires one to honour one’s word? I really sick of having to argue this with you over and over again. And it has come to a point that I’m speechless, utterly disappointed with you and I have no intention to continue to follow that promise we made to each other.

How many times does it take for you to learn? I’m afraid that patience has worn off and you took it for granted. I sometimes wonder are you anxious or ‘afraid’ that I’ll be mad if you exceed the time you said you’ll be home? Do you know that I do. Ever since the first time, I make sure I kept to my promise to you that I will deliver what I said. What about you?

Is it so hard to even tell me a time that you’ll be home? How soon is SOON? 10 minutes? 20 minutes? I even google it check the meaning of the word ‘soon’ Apparently it doesn’t give a specific timing as to how soon is soon but so, that doesn’t give you the right to not inform.

I wasn’t angry until I received your bloody curt message asking me to sleep tight! Hello!!! don’t you have anything to say after what I sent you? Are you that stupid? Must I type it out to you that I AM MAD AT YOU than you know? Or you trying to play your stupid games again telling me you didn’t think it’s your fault and it’s too a puny issue that you think I’m overreacting and being too ridiculous!!!

I AM SO FUCKING MAD AT YOU NOW!!!!!!!! until my gastric hurts like fuck.

ON THE EVE OF MY BIRTHDAY

ON THE VERY DAY ITSELF…

THIS IS THE IRRITATING COUSIN (below picture, referring to the female)

FINALLY DONE UPLOADING!! ENJOY READING! =)

HEY PEOPLE! I’M BACK!!!!! Whooohoo.. it’s like what, 123456789879805 years since I last blogged. Think my memory is failing because I took like 5 minutes to figure out what my password was before I could successfully log in into wordpress.

Like I said my memory is failing so I’ll try my bestest to recall and consolidate all the happening events in the past three months.

Guess I will start off with my birthday bash at Fraser Place Service Apartment last Saturday. It was really an awesome place less the part when there was totally no electricity at 4am sharp in the morning till the following 8am. The place was really ideal to hold both best friends and irritating relatives. Note that I said irritating cause they really are which I will explain in the later part of the post. Have to admit and say there was some much to do from preparations to decorations and the design of my invitation card. But all of these were paid off. =) Special thanks to a few people and they are, UREN CHEN, CHEN YOU QIAN, MYRA CHIA, JACQUELINE CHIANG AND TAN HWEE YING.

UREN – Thanks for helping me design the poster, sending the invites to my friends, printing and collecting the poster, booking the accommodation although it could be done much later so it will be cheaper BUT I appreciate it cause I know you were worried that there will be no more availability if it’s too last minute. Of cause not forgetting ordering of the cake and decorating the place up for me using the glass table as a ladder!! For your info I was picturing what would happen if the glass table break and you land on a pool of shattered glass and that how I would react. Probably the usual answer I give you if I’m in shock – fainting or die on the spot. HAHA.

YOU QIAN- Maybe you won’t get to see this but thanks for lending me the Wii.

MYRA & JACQUELINE – Thanks babe for helping me to collect the cake and playing awesome songs at the party with your ipod.

HWEE YING – Ha I actually typed chucky then I backspace it and typed ‘hwee ying’. Anyway thanks for helping out to pack the food in the styrofoam boxes and bringing the speakers.

In case you guys are wondering why there is a power cut, it is an exercise carried out with the Singapore Power Supply as a part of building safety requirement for a complete check and servicing. Hahaha… I actually opened my email and copied the paragraph to explain to you guys. Maybe because they wanted to save their backside from receiving complaints from guests that’s why I got an upgrade for free. (Initially I book a 3 room executive, but then downgrade to a 2 room deluxe, but surprisingly when I check-in, it was a 3 room executive for the price of a 2 room deluxe!!)

I know it’s damn sway that they had to do that stupid check on my birthday. And I really feel bad that you guys had to sleep without air-con for 4 hrs. Nonetheless, I hope those who stayed had fun. =)

P.S chucky I can’t wait till it’s your birthday man. Ahahah, if we play that game, (one gets to pour and select who to drink) you are so going to die! I hope you cleared all the shit before you’re in Vietnam. =)

It was really a night to remember. Meeting up with people whom I haven’t been talking for ages like Kian Hoon. I’m sorry I didn’t really talk to you much, was busy entertaining people. That’s the bad thing about inviting relatives to the party. Anyway I hope you understand. Please catch up soon alright!? =)

Speaking of relatives, I pity that guy who is going to marry my cousin. I don’t why you want to marry her when her mouth stinks, (worst than eating ten raw garlic) never think before she speak and loves to poke her nose in others lives. So what if she is pretty but her heart is as black as my shit. Some of us were thinking are you afraid that she would dump you that’s why you treat her like some royal princess. Or is it because you are over the moon that someone is willing to accept you and agree to be your girl friend. I’m sorry I’m not discriminating you that you are fat, but I’m sure you should have guess that some of my relatives were asking why my cousin would choose you. Whatever it is, you guys are going to get married so I wish you the best of luck.

She was commenting on my top saying why was there a big hole, is it because I’m too poor to get a proper top to wear on my birthday and even laughed at my birthday cake and went like ‘Chey! I thought you cake was damn tall but it’s so flat.’ (so what if I choose to get a brownie as a cake, you got any problem with that. So common to have those normal key shape cake what.) Then next she commented that is this a funeral, why I used a yellow cloth as a table cloth. The worst has yet to come. Next she went, ‘Why you bother putting the poster behind you, makes it look like we are paying respect to you with the yellow cloth and three candles like joss stick.’ TELL ME, SHE DAMN WHAT THE FUCK RIGHT?!!!

And when I told my mum about it she was saying, ‘Wa, ah hwa eh chee bye chui x3’ in hokkien. Damn funny can.

Shall upload the pictures this weekend. Haven’t got the time to resize all of them. Stay tune for more hot happenings. Time to sleep, tomorrow got to attend some stupid Ion P.R.I.D.E training.

WOW!!! IT’S BEEN LIKE WHAT, 1 MONTH SINCE I LAST BLOGGED!! THAT IS A RECORD MAN!!

I promise I will take so time off my busy work schedule to blog or spare some time out from my precious off days to blog. Don’t be complaining if it’s going to be about work, nasty customers, hitting monthly targets, stress, CAUSE THAT’S WHAT I AM DEALING WITH EVERY SINGLE DAY. Yeah, it’s darn boring. But what to do, that’s my life and I’ve chosen it.

I still remember the look on B’s face whenever I started blabbing non-stop about how sian it is to be working as a full timer and how much I hated work. I think my expression must have been hilarious, my face all scrunched up, brows kneading together, eyes red and watery and my lips working non-stop at every word I said. No matter how many times I complained over the same issue, he will just hug me close to his chest while I whine, plant a kiss on my forehead and softly whisper ‘I understand my dear.’

Although it’s nothing really special, but it’s really sweet and warming to me. =) THANKS BABY!

So.. the good news is, I’m slowly adapting to my new life now. Don’t feel as sore as before about the lack of fun and time I missed out with my friends. It’s all about time management, finding time for your love ones. I mean it’s like there is no excuse for having no time. Aren’t we lucky that technology now allows us to have seamless communication no matter where we are? Don’t you agree it feels good when you received a message from someone asking ‘how have you been?’ You feel appreciated and touched that that someone actually cares and bothers to take time to contact you. So to those whom I have neglected like Kian Hoon, Michelle etc. I promise to at least drop a message. =)

The next piece of good news is my hard work finally paid off. =) I am rank the 4^th among all the BS/LBS/CM ranking for the month of April. It’s really an achievement for me! I’m not trying to boast here, but well I really think I did great. =) It wasn’t easy for me though. Every night I have to think of figures, FIGURES AND FIGURES. Calculating how much I need to do each day in order to hit my target. There are also days I go without lunch, not exactly no lunch la. Just that instead of having the 1 hour lunch break, I’ll just stay at the counter to eat sandwiches.

Another shocking thing is, I WAS NOT LATE FOR THE WHOLE ENTIRE MONTH! =) Not that I have a problem with punctuality, just that there are times I am late too. You must be thinking I’m only not late cause I am a full timer now, because I have responsibilities. Is not just that simple. Because 1 minute = $1!! Yeah!! Each month you have an allowance of 10 minutes late. The charges applies at the 11^th minute once you are late. Not only that, if you are late from the 11^th minute onwards you don’t get to have any incentives even though you hit your target. Pretty complicating so the thing is DON’T BE LATE AND DON’T TAKE MC!

Call me a workaholic or hardworking, cause I’m always an hour or close to two hours earlier than my supposedly shift. Like for instance, if I’m working afternoon, supposedly to report at 1.40pm, I’ll be at work say, 12pm? Also, I never end work on time if I’m working morning shift. The earliest I leave would be 7pm instead of 5.40pm. HAHA! I know this sounds crazy, but if you want to earn money, hit your target, you really really need to discipline yourself and be diligent. At least that’s what I learnt from one of my colleagues who is always the top in every month’s ranking.

Being in this line is really challenging. Challenge number 1. MEETING NASTY CRAZY CUSTOMER. Well, you have to admit you get to meet cheapo, nice, fussy, hot-tempered customers at any one point of time. And the challenge is how you deal with them.

There was once I was serving this ridiculously nasty ang moh customer. I approached her thinking that she here to purchase things. But I WAS WRONG!

ME: Hi, can I help?

ANG MOH: I want to do a makeover, want to see how are the skills of you guys. Well, since the three of you (me and 2 other colleagues were on duty) are standing here doing nothing, I think there shouldn’t be any obligations.

Hearing from the way she speak I unwantedly sat her down why I prepare the necessary items to do the make over. I so regretted man for rushing to say ‘HI’ to her. You know la, in this line, you got to be aggressive. Whoever says ‘Hi’ to the customer, the customer is yours. So I’m sway lo, say ‘Hi’ to the ‘wrong’ customer. I tell you she is really crazy man!

ANG MOH: I want a dewy, natural look!!! Dewy!! Dewy!! DEWY!! YOU HEAR ME?! I am 40 but I want to look 20. I want look like Jennifer Aniston. DEWY!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!

I was thinking, eh HELLO!!! With that kind of wrinkles (TOUCH WOOD) around your face and eyes how am I ever going to possibly changed you into someone like her. Even trying to make you look younger like a 20 year old is out of the question. Maybe it is possible for those renowned makeup artist, but I really doubt so la, unless you go for some plastic surgery. I was panicking man. Have to admit I totally have no experience or any cert in make up. And it is more or 10 times more difficult to do a make over for someone with wrinkles. You get what I mean. Like how to blend those colours on her eyelid? Moreover it’s my second week working, I totally freak out!

While I was applying the foundation for her, she snapped, ‘YOU’VE GOT ONLY TWO MINUTES TO GET THIS DONE YOU HEAR ME?! AND DEWY PLEASE.’ As I was doing her make up, I really just want to get it over and done with. I didn’t care if I present myself professionally I just want to get rid of her.

So while I’m hurrying applying the stuff on her face, she kept telling me if I am able to make her look 20, she will buy all the stuff I used on her in bulks!! YEAH RIGHT!!! So why I say she is crazy, because she was telling me her husband is a jerk. He dumped her for another woman. She wants to show that bastard that she look good at the barbecue later (she is rushing off to attend a barbecue). I was laughing loudly in my head that no wonder her husband dumped her. Just look at her stupid attitude. Serve her right!

So after I’m done, I told her what are the items I used on her to create that DEWY look she kept emphasizing on. Then suddenly she pointed towards my colleague and ordered her to come over as if she was a dog. I can’t explain how she did that but her action was so rude, totally no respect for my colleague. She asked her if what I’ve used on her was right and if it made her look good. After much deciding, she slowly cancel out on the items that she said she wanted. Not because she has them which was what she told me (oh I have foundation I will get them once I finish it) but simply cause she can’t afford to pay. Kinda overheard her conversation with her daughter over the phone about not having money to pay the dress.

That was not all yet! I walked her to the cashier so I could pack the stuff she bought for her while she does the payment, she started to do stunt again! Saying, ‘Oh, all of these are in Japanese, how am I supposed to know how to use it when there is no instructions in English.’ Thankfully the cashier told her this is a popular item from SHU, then she reluctantly paid with cash. She even rushed the cashier to be quick if not she don’t want to get those stuff. WHAT THE HELL RIGHT!

There’s another time when I almost got complained. I was so furious that I cried at the counter. So far that was the worst experience I had so far. I was accused of not knowing my products well and she even said that I was STUPID. What the fuck la! And another time, I had to fork out my own money to pay for my customer’s eyebrow pencil because I was the one who sharpened the pencil for her. BLOODY $35! Though it’s not a lot but having to pay for something you didn’t lose it really got me smoldering with rage! Since that time onwards I hate to sharpen eyebrow pencils. I totally condemn that pencil to core man. how I wished I didn’t passed the test so I need not sharpen customer’s pencil. ARRGH! Anyway no doubt the pencil is really good but you know it’s so irritating to have to sharpen for customer. In a day you get to sharpen about 10 pencils? Not only me, my colleagues sometimes too, curse and swear whenever customer comes back for sharpening.

Alright enough of work issues, I shall let the pictures do the rest of the talking. Hands are tired after typing so much. Brain is almost dead by now trying to remember what I did over the past one month. Had a few catch up with friends. Had wonderful dinner with B and DEBRA. =) And by the way, if you haven’t watch WOLVERINE, YOU SHOULD!!! IS DAMN NICE! =)

Some of the MUST HAVE FROM SHU UEMURA. I don’t have all the pictures of our best sellers, once I got it will upload it up. =)

Quality time together

My life = NO LIFE

 

I really think my CM did this to my eye on purpose! It’s so ugly can! I don’t even dare to look down lo.

Our newly launch painting eyeliner (gel eyeliner). So we are suppose to be using it and she drew that on me. You know I was so shock when I look back into the mirror. I didn’t expect it will turn out to be that way although I already felt something was wrong when she practically colour my entire eye lid in TURQOISE! CAN YOU IMAGINE THE NUMBER OF STARES I RECEIVED?!! ):

 

 

 

Sigh, hate being a newcomer, kena bully like fuck.

 

 

1. ‘Can you move all the cartons down, I’ve got back problem can’t carry heavy stuffs’ (like real man!)

 

2. I’ve got to clean the entire tester bars alone!!

 

3. My shifts are like shit! This Thursday will be April FULL not April FOOL. I’ve got to go to work at 8AM for stock take, then to office for training from 11-7PM, then back to work till 9.30PM. INSANITY!!!

 

 

 

 

 

Barely slept for the whole of last night. Mainly because I was worrying that B would be worn out, not having proper and enough rest, despite staying OVERNIGHT AT THE OFFICE work is still not completed. This is really insane. He actually stayed there for the entire whole night rushing a project!

Is it worth it?

 

 

Kah Wai was really thoughtful to call B in the middle of the night yesterday to ask if he could render some help. Must be thinking you can strike lottery since this is the FIRST time I sing praises of you. HAHA! Seriously, even I appreciate and felt your sincerity. (:

 

 

I may be in no position to judge and I have nothing against the company, especially being in the H&T industry, I’ve seen many of some cases having to do OT without being asked. However, what I want to say is, your employees are the key to your success. Without them how can profits be rolling in? Employees loyalty is very important, because when the company treats each and every employee with due respect, equality and gives special incentives or even the slightest way like saying ‘THANK YOU’ boost and makes one to feel belonged. And thus, the no grumble when they have to out in extra effort, work longer hours if they have to etc. Think about it, is this the practice at your company? Maybe you’ve haven’t/never heard, that’s because you never asked.

 

 

I am not pin pointing at any company in specific but in general. If you happen to FEEL that this is the situation that you may be experiencing, give it some thought. I believe you were also once an employee by someone. Employees’ loyalty and belongingness is really important.

 

 

B, please don’t forget your meals. MISSES!

 

 

I TOTALLY REGRET WORKING AS A FULL TIME TO BE EXACT!!

I TOTALLY REGRET SIGNING THE BOND!!

I AM TOTALLY NOT MOTIVATED TO DO SALES!!

I AM TOTALLY WAITING FOR TIME TO PASS ASAP EVERYDAY!!

 

I totally need to go to bed now cause punctuality is so damn important!

 

1 minute late = $1

Don’t you all agree that after we work for a certain period of time at a particular place, there is a kind of authority you possess and an air when you speak to newcomers even though you are considered a newbie with only a few months of experience?

 

 

My colleagues are ok, still too early to judge. But my impression of them is that they seem pretty unfriendly and unwilling to teach which I’ve already expected.

 

I so wished I was posted to either Ochard Tangs or Taka, not because they are A counters (top in sales) but because I’ve got friends there. My most preferred would be Tangs, a least I will have a lot of lunch khakis. ): But not too bad la, I’m stationed at Isetan Scotts at least it’s in town, hopefully sales is not too bad here. But I overheard form my colleagues that the sales this month is like shit. Business is really bad man due to the economic crisis. Really stressed me out when I heard that, apart from the commission scheme since next month I will be bearing target.

 

 

I’m really starting to feel the stress. Or maybe I’m giving myself the unwanted stress. Because I expect a lot out of myself. No matter what I have to make sure I hit 80% of my target, any less than that the commission I’ll be getting is like shit. And they are so strict about lateness and MC. A little too complicated to explain but once you are on MC or late in that month, the incentive will be forfeited. I think I really need to work on this part man. B promise to morning call me everyday. HAHA!

 

 

So sway! My line got cut off yesterday! ): It’s really frustrating because hand phone has become a must-have item with you. Feel so uneasy without it, half the time I’m thinking who is trying to reach me but I’m unavailable.

 

 

 

HAHAHA! My new name is Renee. Sounds weird? But heck la, just for working use, because they totally can’t remember my name and keep pronouncing it wrongly!!! Example, they can even call me GRAN SAN = GRANDSON (sound alike) What the hell right!!!   

It’s my first day of work!

 

You know what, when I got up this morning at 7am, the first thing that came to my mind is, ‘I’m kinda regretting getting a full time job’ I mean look at the numerous things I will be missing out. Like now, I’m sulking over the fact that I can’t be going JB with the DOTS company this Thursday. I was so looking forward to it, even wanted to request to take off on that day, but so sway, gotta go BHG (Bugis) to relief. ):

 

 

By the way, I think I ought to make a trip down to Kino one of these days when I’m free and get my hands on a couple of hair styling magazines. I spent almost close to half an hour this morning trying to fix my hair into something stylish yet neat. In the end, I really had no idea what I can do, I just tie everything up into a pony tail and left my house hurriedly. Was the last to reach by a couple of minutes late because I was searching high and low for my IC. Luckily it’s with precious. PHEW!

 

The first hour was pretty boring and dry. Introduction about the company yadaa yadaa. Next part of the day was a killer! Thank goodness I’m not alone. Met this really petite girl, Sophie. She is really small!! Smaller than me and has an ultimately surprisingly huge appetite. Despite eating so much over lunch, (she says she eats a lot daily too) she only weighs 32kg!!! OMG!! That’s like my weight in primary school la!!! HAHA, I’m not the shortest because she is shorter than me. Oook… I know I am being damn mean here, but I’m always the shortest among my friends, and I rarely meet people who are shorter than me. So… (:

 

 

So back to training. Is really a killer!! I have to memorize almost everything at a short span of 3 hours on all the skin care range! Thankfully it’s not a really tough job for me because I have some background knowledge on skin care when I was at IPSA. After a hearty lunch at Pastamania, it was the second round of fun torture. I said fun cause it’s really amazing to know the different techniques SHU uses, torture because having to grasp everything at such a short time. I never knew SHU cosmetic is really that good. If you haven’t try, you really should. And now I also finally know why sometimes my full timers complain it’s so stress. IT REALLY IS!

 

 

Tomorrow will be the official day I’m starting work at the counter. Wish me good luck that my counter manager is good and not mean like Agnes, my other retail manager. She look so fierce, always unsmiling, and talk like she damn yaya like that. Maybe I still don’t really know her so. Pretty excited! Shall get back reading my notes! ):

 

 

 

This sounds lame but I’m getting a ang moh name. Jac and B had the same suggestion, Renee. Jac says I got the ‘R’ face. LOL! Anyway, still thinking about it though. I know DOTS gang must be laughing la. Like I’m known as REN SHAN for all these years. Suddenly got ang moh name so weird. I also find it weird.

I’m having this fluttering feeling in my stomach. Makes me go to the toilet a couple of times! Ha!! Oook… I should just relax a bit, it’s just my first day of work, just treat it as a normal working day at IPSA. But I still can’t help feeling kan chiong la!

 

By the way I’ve got so much to say, but you know pictures tell a thousand words. Scroll down after 17^th March pictures if you dare. Don’t say I never warn you, it’s really gross.

 

Please read through the terms and conditions before you scroll down:

 

• Must be above the age of 16
• Do not scroll down if you are eating
• Do not scroll down if you just had a heavy meal
• DO NOT DO NOT SCROLL DOWN IF YOU FEAR BLOOD

 

 

 

17^th March

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CAUTION!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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YOU VERY SURE

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GO!!!!